a day off

it may seem that a stay-at-home mother has endless days off, but truly my only days off are when jason is around and healthy. these last few weeks jason has worked overtime to cover all the people struck down with the flu only to wind up sleeping through two days of his life, tucked shivering under his covers. then sebastian got it. i must say i have a lot of bravado concerning my kids' illnesses; i keep my chin up and try to keep all the horror stories i have some how collected concerning sick children out of my consciousness (though i will think, what did mrs. march do when beth was sick with scarlet fever? oh yes, she rubbed beth's feet to bring the fever down from her head. and then i will proceed to rub my hot boy's feet, just in case. i do draw the line at leeches, so don't worry). i really have always had a hard time reading stories or watching movies with children or cute animals because they are, 9.5 times out of 10, the victims. this began with old yeller when i was four. though i did watch nobody knows over the weekend, but that was only because it was filmed in japan and i knew it was a tragic story to begin with. i suppose movies with healthy children that live happily until they are 112 would be too boring but personally i would watch them because they would help to balance the fear that i carry with me, the same heavy emotion all parents have, conceived along with our children. anyway, the illness has now (knock on wood) left the building and today jason had a day off. and it was nice. very nice. i hope everyone is warm and genki. take care. (P.S. HAPPY THIRD BIRTHDAY, L.!!!)